Sometimes I feel blue.

I read in a book recently that someone once asked Helen Keller (MY Hero) if she could feel colors. She said "sometimes I feel blue". Blue is how I am feeling and if you ask me how I am and I say OK you can equate that with Blue. I am tired of being blue but I do not seem to have anything to replace it with just OK. I feel all I have has been taken away from me and that makes me feel blue. I know my followers will understand. I Love you all. I am the most happy when I am thinking of you I wish I could see you more often. I am looking forward to my trip to Hawaii in April. So just think of when happy days are here again. Soon I hope

I'll be home Christmas

Well I got a great call for My sons birthday it was him. I was worried how I was going to be able to talk to him for his birthday, but he called me. It was good to hear his voice. So I am in my car today and driving to the post office to pick up the box that I need to send his Christmas package, Yes I know it will be late, and what song should come on but Josh Groban singing "I'll be home for Christmas." I started to cry and The more I cried the louder I sang. I love that song. I was thinking about Beverly too. I hope she is working hard up there with Gram and I hope she gets to Ignore Mike a lot. It will be a sad Christmas without her. My new grand baby is a girl this is a good thing because the boys were taking over. I am certainly not old enough to have an 8 year old grand daughter but I do. She is so smart and I wish I could see her more. I am looking forward to seeing My grandsons in April when I go for Kamryn's birth. I am going to try to put some pictures on now wish me luck. Well no luch I guess I need more lessons

Home again Home again

Here is a picture of Joel and Julies house it is so cute and the back deck is really neat. I wanted to take a picture of their view but I forgot. We really had a very good visit and we had a most excellent flight. We left right on time from Arcata and came home right on time. It was just fun, fun, fun. Thank you Marinda and Joseph for making the trek with 4 kids. I think we had a good time. We are sorry we did not get to for to the Swiderski reception but we are looking forward to the one here in Crescent City in December.

We are home again at least for a week. We had a great weekend in Utah. We got to see Joels play which was wonderful and then we gotto help him move into his new house. That was fun too. It was nice to see it finished the last time I saw it , it had no walls. I was so proud of his play. It was so wonderful. It was so funny. We got to see 5 of our 11 grandchildren and next weekend we will get to see 2 more. I have not been home for a weekend all month long and Thanksgiving will be the only one I will be home this month. Oh yes I guess I will be home for my birthday. If I can be patient enough I will try to post some photos.

New member of the family

While we were in Riverside for Beverly David looked in the paper and found his new dog, We brought him home to Terrie's during the luncheon and left it to the family to help name him. He was the smallest in the litter and he is a little bony but he is just cute and we love him already. Joseph came up with the Name of Zeus, it seems to fit him well her is a picture if I can get it to work.

Bad news continues

September 30, my last post I told you about my Mother in law and how ill she was. She lasted exactly 31 more days. She passed away in her sleep on October 31, 2008. What a good mother she was. I will miss her more than I can say. I did not always agree with her but most of the time she was right. I am so glad that I sent David to Portland to see her when she came for Erica's wedding. It may not have been the best idea as she got ill and ended up in the hospital for 2 days.

She had her last Chemotherapy the day before she died. The nurse was leery about giving it to her as she was so weak, but she got the OK from her doctor. She was determined to live. But someone else had something in mind for her and she is now in heaven being of service there. I know she is. Here are some pics of the luncheon after the service. Well I cannot get the pictures to come up but here is the flower arrangement we got for her, the other picture is of her and Terrie before they came home from Portland. I will get on the phone with my Blog Guru and try to do better. Heard from Jared last night it was 9:00 in the morning in Iraq but 10:00 at night here it was great to hear his voice. Thank you Matthew Spencer for talking me through some of the idocycrincies of Iraq it eased my mind a lot. It was very good to see you Patrica and the Kids at Beverly's funeral. Thanks again.

Good news Bad news.

Well lets get right to the bad news Grandma Beverly has metastatic cancer to the liver and the bone. This is very bad. Bone cancer is real bad but liver cancer is worse and according to her PET scan at least 2 lobes of her liver are involved. She has hot spots on her spine and hip and is having a lot of hip pain. The good news is that she is going to fight. She will start chemotherapy tomorrow and it will go for 3 weeks then they will check her again. Her doctor is telling her that it will not cure her but it could give her more time. She is having hip pain and is on strong pain medication, but she is determined to go down swinging. She told me when we went to Las Vegas she thought she had bone cancer but I kind of poo-pooed her because she has such bad osteoporosis I thought It was just that acting up. I will keep you informed about what is going on but you might want to be prepared and to remember her in your prayers. While you are praying you might send up a word for Fred Wagner he is having a hard time right now. He has a major infection in his good leg. and his blood sugars have been going up and down so badly he went back to the hospital today with seizures that could not be controlled. Dad started Physical therapy today and I guess it went well he did not complain much. Today was payday and we actually got paid. Things are good in Crescent City for your poor beleaguered parents. Gramp is doing well. He will be 89 on November 24 th keep that date in mind. I will post a few pictures after we get back from Redding Renasisance faire this weekend.

Baby, baby.baby.

I cannot read all of my daughter's (I'm leaving out the in law) posts and not let them all know how much I love them. I have been thinking about Marinda a lot and about how when we found out about Andrew I prayed for a miracle. I prayed that the doctors would be wrong and Andrew would be fine and come out healthy. I felt at peace praying for this and right up until he was born I felt my prayers were going to be answered. They were, we received our miracle his name was Andrew and he was a most beautiful boy in the world he was sent to earth to teach this family some things. I feel we have learned many of Andrews lessons, but his very life is still teaching us something. I felt so bad when Julie miscarried her first baby. I felt it was my fault. I should have known to do something more than I did after all I am a nurse. You are all such awesome parents in your own way and what ever happens I know that it is in Heavenly Fathers plan for this family and it is our gift to know that. Jaime this includes you. As dysfunctional as you may think this family if we have that gift of faith and I hope you will never lose it.

Back on the Blog

I cannot believe It has been 2 months since I have written. I have been to Utah, Lake Tahoe and Las Vegas. Fast trips yes but fun just the same. We drove to Utah (this was my third trip this year), saw Joseph and family and then went to Joels where we stayed for 3 nites and helped them with their house. I swept the whole upstairs. It is a nice house and Joel says if things keep going as planned they will be in by October 10, so when we go to see Joels play we will get to stay at the house. Anyway we than went to Lake Tahoe for the Elson family reunion. It is always a nice time. Then back to work and 2 weeks later we went to Las Vegas for Joseph to receive his masters degree in Library Science. It was great fun Grandma and Aunt Terrie came also and of course we had a good time. I got to go see the Dolphins and the white tigers with the grand kids and that was fun. The trip home was harrowing. We did not know if we would make our connection in San Francisco as our plane from Las Vegas left very late. Luckily we made it and got home safely and back to work. Work Work Work. I will be glad when I do not have to use that word every day. Her are some Fun Pics of the trips.

Beverly Elson Bree and Family

Grad Joseph & his Professor

Shark Bait

In Crescent City we have Ocean World. It is a fun place to go if you are an adult or a kid. You can get inside the Shark and look like you have been eaten. The kids love to be eaten by the shark. I would not like to see my whole family eaten by a shark like this but it is just pretend.

Today while the sun shines.

My children will know what a joke this title is. The sun never shines in Crescent City. This week I am going to try to ride my bike to work all by myself. I do not know if I can do it all the way to work this morning all I could notice is the stuff in the bike lane. Horse poop, dead animals and trash. YUK. And then there is the dreaded driveway. It is the one that the man came out of and ran me over 2 years ago. I may have to cross the street to avoid it. I uses to have David ride up in front of it and stay there until I passed by. It is raining here now so if it is too wet I may sleep the extra hour and go on Wednesday. I am going to do it this week Honest.

I have been showing people the pictures of our trip on my camera. We had such a good time. I was extremely impressed by some of the choir's we heard. One at the main concert. They were a group of music educators that formed a trombone choir and the piece they played was so good. It was very Avant Gard but it told a great story. The second was a 21 trombone choir we heard in the lobby of the Utah symphony hall. They were wonderful. The range of trombones was phenomenal from alto to base. and the talent was wonderful. It was such a great experience. And I got to spend the day with Damon we has a fun time going to the BYU bookstore and looking at all of the books. Katelyn have your mom post a picture of your haircut. Everyone says your hair is beautiful. I hope you will always think so. On to bed to get ready for tomorrow. It is hard being the only bread winner who has to get up in the morning.

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Grandchildren-delightful

This is Adam he is my number 10 grandchild. What a Guy he is. His mother said at Thanksgiving that he was her skinniest child. Look at him today or at least on Mothers Day. He is one hefty guy. I love all my grand kids it makes me so glad that I am a Mother, and I am thankful for my Mother.

Favorite son

Who can resist calling this their favorite son. He tries so hard. this was taken before he marries his beatuiful wife Julie. Julie has a fun family and I am glad we are related to them. Joel and Julie have a sweet son whose name is Devin. Juat ask his grandmother Bree she knows. I love all of my sons but this one had to put up with me longer I insisted he come to Disneyland with us I don't know if he had a fun trip but I rememer it fondly.

Old Movies

Yesterday we watched an old Movie it was "The unsinkable Molly Brown" what fun it was to see a favorite old movie. Movies bring back good memories. When I went to BYU the weekend movie was "Thoroughly Modern Millie" we went and saw it both nights and then we would pretend tap dance down the back stairs to home (only about 50-60 stairs). I love old musicals. We watched "Seven Brides for Seven Brothers" on Saturday. What fun that was. I must say I have not seen any new musical movies lately that I liked. I have not seen "Dreamless" and I thought "Chicago" was just marginal. MY mother in law would beg to differ and she loved it, but I was not impressed. My mother took my sister and I to downtown Hollywood to see "South Pacific" we got to miss school. So it became something we did it a lot. I remember going to Brahmans Chinese and seeing "Darby O'Gill and the little people" we had a good day in Hollywood that day. We went to the Pantages to see "Funny Girl" there is nothing like the big screen. I had only seen "Gone with the Wind" on TV and while I was at Ricks they showed it at the Local theater. It was so wonderful. I remember seeing "First Knight" at the movies and during the fight scenes instead of blood and guts like in "Braveheart" the music was so powerful and you could use your imagination as to what was going on. I guess that is why I love old radio broadcasts you have to imaging what is going on (most of the time they tell you) but it is fun to listen. Old Movies are great and especially old musicals.

Thursday

So it is Thursday. I do not have much to say. I have ridden my bike to work 3 of four days this week. WOOO HOO! I am having more fun. I have discovered listening to my I-pod on the way to work. I had been just riding. Now the time goes so fast and before I know it we are at work. We have left the trailer behind and we go much faster today our average speed was a little over 13 MPH. Pretty good huh! we pedaled down the one big hill and got up to 30 MPH. Is that fun or what! Considering we only go 6-9 MPH up he hill. My goal is to never go into single digits during the ride. We do on one hill but have not masterd the other yet. I always check out the place where the guy hit me. I look for him. I think we are to early for him. we eave at 5:30 now and make it in about 40 min. I have not felt like such a drag this week I feel like I am pulling my weight more. Yeah bike riding.

Mother/Mother-in-law

I miss my mother. She has been gone almost 4 years. She was my friend. She showed me the way more than once, and encouraged me to push myself way beyond what I thought I could do. I feel she was proud of me and of my children. She once told us that we were going to get a new Bishop. We said yeah right who is it she would not tell but she did write it on a paper and sealed it in an envelope which we were allowed to open after the new Bishop was announced. SHE WAS RIGHT. We were amazed. I myself never doubted what she knew from then on. She was at all of my graduations High School, Ricks, BYU and Nursing School. She usually did go to all of my children's performances also. I love her very much and I am looking forward to seeing her again someday.
Mother in Law-I never thought my mother in law liked me very much. She told me one time I was a nag, but amazingly I had grown out of it. We had a very nice visit in January while I went to see her to go to the quilt show and then She and my sister in law came to see us for a week and we had a very good visit. I just received a beautiful vase of flowers from her for mothers day. I love them they are so nice. I love both of the mothers I was blessed with. I hope I am as good of mother and mother in law as they are.

blog, blog,bolg

My son tells me that if I do not post more The will drop me from their list of Blog sites to look at. Oh well who is the favorite now. I love to read blogs I just don't like to write so much. I do not know how to make mine fancy like my daughter and daughters in law. I am hoping to have some blog training time when we get together at the end of the month. I am looking forward to this trip and to seeing all of my children and grandchildren. david does not have to go to orchestra today, but he got called out for search and rescue. How exciting. I Love my grandson Chandlers blog and I am trying to get my daughter to start a blog for my grandaughter Lindsey. I guess I am supposed to reveal things about myself now. So I guess I can tell the favorite that I love him/her a lot. I am so proud of you all and I talk about you all of the time. Yesterday in Relief Society I passed the news paper around after I had pointed out each of my beloved children to the sisters. You give me reason for living. Love MOM

Way behind

I cannot believe I have not posted since Januaury. Not much has happened. I had eye surgery and fared very well and I went to Utah and broke my camera. So I may not have new pictures to add. I got to spend some time with 2 of my boys and I am looking forward to seeing all three of my boys at the end of May when we go to the international trombone festivle in Salt Lake City Utah. I had to call my daughter in law Suzanne to tell me how to get back on and post since it has been so long since I have written.. Things are much the same around here. I am enjoying looking at all of my daughter in laws blogs and now my grandson has one so I will have to look at it. So far so good this year. I look froward to our next trip to Utah, Then it will be a while before we go anywhere again.

Vacation sans Husband

I just got back from a vacation without my husband. I had a great time. I was so happy to get home but I really had a restful time. I made a plan back in December to to to the Road to California quilt show. I stayed with my sweet sister in law Terrie and my Mother in law Beverly. We went to the quilt show and I got my picture taken with Eleanor Burns and she signed a bag for me I had fun I spent lots of money and got some good bargains and looked long and hard at a lot of quilting machines. One of the first things I said to David was that we did nothing he would have been interested in, He said well he was glad he did not go. We ate out a lot but we had such fun. The quilts were beautiful and I could have spent a lot more money. I was able to see my nephews make bears at build a bear it was really fun but Casey's bear did not need a cell phone. I will publish pictures when I get them downloaded we got to see some nice antiques at the show in San Diego and Terrie got some good bargains there. We were so happy. I got a birthstone ring and I really love it. David said "I want to go see my Mother" but he did not make a plan. I had such a good time. I have already made a plan for next year and I am going to bring my friend. She is mad she did not come this time. I thank you Beverly and Terrie so much for having me it was really fun. The moral is make a plan!!!!!!